derfuchsbaronin

Ich wache auf und du bist nicht hier. So here is update from my life in the last few weeks since I last posted. My mom and her husband are separated as of 3 days ago They were together now 8 years All over so fast. They told me. She doesn't want to be with him any more. Maybe she never did love him. I was angry. Now I don't know how I feel. I know partly it is tired how I feel. Deep inside. I just have no desire for the future. I feel very alone. I went to my friend hoping he would just hold me. I don't know This is not what happened. Maybe my fault because I am not able to ask for love. I am alone.

-- Today won't be like yesterday The bell tolls for an hour straight Screaming mothers chase their children down Fathers tear out their eyes As the city topples to the ground Outside the streets are in a panic Truth sellers leap from tall, tall ledges No sign of Christ with a sword in his mouth Beneath the blood red sky I'll sit and laugh with you tonight This is a promise I made to you I'll be right there I'll be right next to you When the trumpets blare the loudest and cannons roar All that trains that once came for you Spill off the tracks floor All your horrors multiply And you realize your fears I'll block your ears wi

I don't want to be alive any more. I'm so tired. I am SO tired of waiting for something good to happen. Then someone told me I can't wait around. I have to make the good things happen. And now I am just that much more tired. Tired from trying to make something happen. Living with the false hope of a better tomorrow.